Anxiety And Panic

"Same Old Frustration" by merdoll

I've always been disappointed on my habit of spazzing out, getting nervous, and angry whenever I get overwhelmed at work. I've always known that this is how work is and this is what business is all about. But for so many years I've always struggled at keeping myself together whenever I'm backed up on work, assignments, orders, etc etc, and it has always bothered and affected people around me. I've tried my best for years to contain myself and patient but even till this day, especially today that habit and weakness continues to exist inside of me. I never knew anything about "anxiety disorder, anxiety attacks or panic attacks." I've always considered this just a terrible habit and bad attitude. But since it has never gone away I realized that I do have a terrible anxiety disorder. So today at work is just another example that I am weak with this damn disorder and that it does exist. Wish I was more mentally stronger.

**Update// After having a meltdown, punching the counter, slapping myself in the backroom to calm down and then finally calming down abit with deep breaths I immediately turned on my Star Wars Playlist and just listened through it while working. Thank you John Williams. Not only do I love the Star Wars score, I also appreciate its healing factor.