Snipe Cosplay: FAILED DEADLINE

Well I failed on completing this in time for Holiday Matsuri. Completely lost track of time, and management. This cosplay is definitely an important tool for a very cosplay based convention. Without such tool I just become an ordinary. And as an ordinary Paul I have nothing much to show. I believe the two major reasons why I've failed is one, that cursed and addicting game Red Dead Redemption 2. And lastly just no motivation. I've said this before in an earlier post but one of the reasons of cosplaying is for cosplaying with friends. Granted that they will be cosplaying, but its the friendship part and the relationship between myself and them are in doubt. I really don't blame them for anything. The blame really just comes down to me and because of that I lost my motivation in completing this and attending Holiday Matsuri.

Some cosplay for attention and fame. There are those that cosplay for connections, friendships within the cosplay community. Some cosplay to make themselves matter to not others per say but mostly for themselves. Finding meaning and accomplishments. When I first picked this hobby it was for that reason alone. I wore something as a bait to attract new people in my life and for a few cons I went in...ALONE with no friends. But soon enough I starting finding those connections and new friendships. And when I finally found them, I began cosplaying just for the sake and purpose of cosplaying with friends that are to dear to me. But now, because of me and a certain fear that I've carried all my life that connection that have made with so many are feeling to be severed. Even those in my Instagram have already been severed. My motivation and purpose for cosplaying and nerding has been changed. Again not because of others....but I think its just because of me and my own fear.

Sorry NO Snipe cosplay ladies and gentlemen. It looks like I will finish it for a later date.