Darkjinesis

"Darkest in life, yet brightest to the few I cherish. Nerd at heart, hard working by day, 

deep thinker by night."

Today marks the day I give up the name Paulioworld on Instagram. I just hated that IG name ever since I got on the social media. It was the only name I thought of and by the time I wanted to change it, it was too late because of the immediate activity and social connections I started to gain.

But now after 6 yrs, IT'S TIME. Despite that I've met so many incredible people as Paulioworld, there were just too many bad things that happened while referred by that IG name.

So why Darkjinesis, and why start going by my Korean name Jin? Well it's all because there was a purpose and meaning when given by that name, and honestly....I just haven't lived by it. There was a certain expectation that came with that name, and even though it is my official name, I just cant continue on bearing the weight, guilt and damage that I've caused with my name. Maybe a more detailed story on this issue will come some time in the future, for now this is all I want to say.

The "esis" obviously coming from the part of the word "genesis" - a word for Origin, root, and beginning. Yes, in part I am using it because of a new beginning of a name. But the true meaning is that I have become so many different things in the span of my life, by trying to be something I'm not, as well as adopting some things into my life that had no businesses being in my life. Hopping from one side to another and I'm just tired of doing so. I just want to be me. My emotions and attitude is dark and you know what? I am who I am.