24 Days In Isolation Status

It has been 24 days since this pandemic had pushed our family into self isolation and frankly to say I have loved this long break away from all the stress that came with working at the shop. I haven't had a good long vacation in awhile, or actually ever this long. When a person describes a vacation(mostly not all) it means going away and visiting somewhere distant with family or with a special "someone someone." But lately for me it has always been something like this. Staying at home and just relaxing. Getting things done around the house and just not worrying about tomorrow, worrying about work, or the anxiety of work the next day. I don't have a special "someone" so planning a trip would be a bit of a lonely trip. I'm not downplaying the idea of going somewhere, its just that I'd rather go with company. A company that I'd comfortable with and fully trust. Last time when I went to Korea it was just nothing but anguish, stress, and a horrendous nightmare. So the next time will be something more special.

But these past 24 days have been a very special time off for me. Being to myself, catching up things, binge watching my favorite tv and movie series without worrying about sleeping too late, enjoying my morning coffees and not rushing and worrying about the start of my day at work. Cleaning out the garage, completing a few in house projects, helping out some of my Parent's in-house projects/chores at their house, spending my time with Max, my brother and I BBQing and enjoying our meals together, meditating and sitting in quietness without the daily chaos of customers usual bullshit. I get to play games when I want and whatever I want. My car had an engine light go off, and what better time for it to go off when I have the time to take it in the shop without worrying about transportation to and from work. Having this little extra time talking with my brother Danny, Quani, a Genie, my neighbors and because of Animal Crossing I get to play games and talk with Mariza more than we usually do. I got to enjoy 24 days of my home that I've been working tirelessly to pay for its mortgage. To actually enjoy something that I'm putting money in. And finally I got the chance to reflect and come on here to blog and journal my current status and thoughts. One of the most relieving, comforting, feelings of achievements, is when I write or speak out my thoughts. Playing games doesn't relieve anything, its relaxing but not relieving. Working out at the gym relieved anything, it was a great place to spit out and vent out my stress from work, but not relieving. It has always been this and I have enjoyed each day in self isolation. This is my vacation that I've always wanted and boy has time gone by quickly when enjoying something. To many others, it has been a financial bind, a suffocating entrapment at home only to their thoughts and the 4 walls surrounding them. No work, being away from human presence and interactions, being alone worrying about tomorrow, worrying by self and so many other things, and I get it. I understand to others its different. This Coronavirus pandemic has halted a majority of people's lives, but for me its what I needed. A halt for me to catch a breath. 

My brother came home from my parents house(helping out with some of their home projects) and informed me that my Mother has finally started to plan and look forward to reopening our family business somewhere around May 9th. A few weeks from now. I'm not going to lie and say that it was exciting news, but as they always say all good things has to come to an end, and OF COURSE it was to be expected. I mean, I NEED to get back to work. Gotta have money in my pocket right? Nothings free. Staying at home like this ain't free when no income is coming in. Just...hearing it out loud got me a bit sad and struck the glass of contentment that I have had these past 24 days. Yet I know the cost, sacrifice, death and the tribulation this pandemic has brought to so many people in this world, and I don't in no way praise this situation the world, this nation is under. This journal post is about the good and the positives that I'm getting from the bad, but not praising and downplaying this terrible pandemic. Time continues to tick on and I just wanted to write about my current status: I AM STILL GOOD, SAFE AND WELL.